Bring It On

Yesterday was just like a blur really, started out that it was going to be ok, but turned into a really busy one. Callum is out of school, he has glandular fever so that means that I am off work too. I was laying bed the other day as you do and I was feeling around my tummy down to my c section scar and I found a lump. A big one. Now my mind was telling me at first "oh Kell it’s just bloody scar tissue" but the more and more I was feeling it, the bigger it seemed. So while I took Callum to the doctor it just got the better of me and I asked to see the Doc too. After feeling around he was like me thinking that it was just scar tissue. However to put my mind at a easy place he filled in some forms for me to get a ultrasound.

We got in the Car and headed over to Hamilton because it was the only town that could see me today, and bugger it I wanted some answers now! The way drive there I couldn’t help but think to myself, " What if there is a baby in there?" I kept having all these happy moments in my head thinking that it could be true. Once inside and laying down on the table my heart started racing a little bit faster. But I knew from looking at the screen that my was is empty. I got to have a look at my ovaries and I still have PCOS I could see the cysts on my ovaries, however there isn’t as many cysts as there once was. Kind of interesting because the doctors tell me that I don’t ovulate and yet that is how the cysts are made from ovulation.

My lump is big. Sorry my scar tissue is big. About 6.9cm long and 4cm wide. I knew it was I can feel it. Just have to wait for the photos and tests to come back to the doctor and I’m hoping that should be Friday. Anyways apart from making a trip to Hamilton it was nice to see my ovaries. That sounds really funny seeing that they go everywhere with me everyday but I got to "see" them yesterday.

All the major happenings always seem to happen when Matt is away!

So now my mind is just ticking over and over, I’m ready I can do this. Yep I can I think I can, No I know that I can do this. Almost by myself, how will it be? How will I cope? How will Matt feel?

Ladies and Gentlemen,

I’m going to get pregnant next year, and birth in 2009!

Hang on to your underwear its really going to be a roller coaster ride.
Kell xx

PS. Gee I feel so much better about writing that, I’m so ready to have a new born again! Bring it on.