11/16/06

We are heading up to melbourne this weekend for just a little break away from living in the country. I need to get some christmas shopping done and what better place then highpoint! So we are driving up on friday afternoon and staying a couple of nights with Shane and then a couple with my Mum. Plus im hanging to go to ikea!! I miss ikea. So I have to say that im really looking forward to going away even if its only for 5 days, and 4 nights. Vaughan is going to come over and watch my girls ( chooks ) for me and the dog and feed them. Im sure that they will miss me in some chickeny way I bet!

Apart from that my life is very boring.

Im still dreaming of a second child that isn’t here yet. And I keep telling myself that she won’t enter our lifes for a long time yet, well not till at least 2008 and that to me just feels like a life time away. But I am coming to a better understanding that I get to have Callum all to myself for a couple of more years. I don’t plan on sending him to kinnergarden till the start of 2008 and the year after he starts school. I know where on earth it the time go??

Callum seems to be very different to a lot of childern he is so kind and loving. He doesnt scream or get upset if I try to do something for him. He does get a little mad when I wake him up in the morning. But a part from that he is only just seeing that we have a telly which i can’t believe that it has taken this long for him to see that. Really before hand he would just play with his blocks and cars and wouldnt even look at the telly, but now that he is into the wiggles he would like me to put them on and he will only watch maybe 5 minutes of it and just listen to the rest while playing cars! We seem to have gone a little "Cars" crazy in the last month Mum got him the DVD for his birthday and that is a must to be watched every couple of days. She also got him a little cars book and there is one page when I read to him and that he gets very upset with and makes a sad little face. Lighting is up in wires having by the light poles and Callums face just changes and he gets all sad and he must just see the pain in the cars eyes because some nights he has a little tear. So this leds to me telling Callum that its ok to kiss lighting and try to make him feel better and then we turn the page and he sees that the car is fine. When he does this it reminds me so much of Matt. Callum has so much of Matt inside of him. Im very thankful for that.

I still think that Callum is different but I cant put my finger on it right now. I guess in time it will all become a little more clearer for me. He still doesn’t talk very much. I get the odd "Kell" or "Mum" and the same with Matt. Sometimes he will come over and sit on my lap and cuddle right into me and give me kiss. And tells me that I look sad. "All better now Mum" ? he is such a old soul.