Hello Friend

I keep having dreams that Matt is dying, moving away, late coming home from work, never comes home, or on holiday without me. We have some idea of when he is going away for work looks like it could be as early as sept 1 or at the latest 1 oct. However it’s only going to be for 10 days. I think my dreams are trying to tell me that I will miss him deeply once he is gone. It’s the death dreams that freak me out. Lots of spookey things have been happening the last 2 weeks. 3 days ago I went outside to get the mail, came back inside but left my house keys in the door on the side. It’s nothing out of normal for me to do it, however Callum was sound alseep and I heard the keys moving side to side so thinking that it was Callum and that he got out of bed without me knowing, I walked around into the front hallway, open Callum’s door he is fast asleep and I look back at the keys, still in the door key hole moving side to side and then they just stop. Interesting. I think we have a vister staying with us. Or maybe it’s my Grandma, I miss her lots. Early that week, I woke up at 4am to see that the kitchen light was on. We went to bed that night at about 11pm so I remember not leaving it on. Early then that, Im sure I heard the dog at the back door. Making lots of crying sounds and scatching the back door. I kicked Matt out of bed and he looked out the kitchen window to see the dog asleep in her bed and nothing at the back door. As long as this person doesn’t show him/her self, Im very happy to share some space.

Matt started his new work roll last Monday and is loving it. I must say that I’m loving it too. He is home by 3pm and it’s great. We have a little bit more time together before it gets dark and go for walks. V has been taking Callum for me on a Tuesday and Thursday afternoon. he just walks him down to the beach with the dog and they have a play and walk back. All up I get a hour and half to myself or with Matt. Its only twice a week, plus I think its a bonus time for grandpa and grandson bonding time together. I kinda forgot whats its like to go to the toliet on your own.

I also found some work for myself down here. Out of all the places in the world, down at the local florist shop. It’s not that bad too. I have been enjoying myself, as you can see no entries from me of late. The lady just needs some one to help out here and there. Sometimes on a Saturday and some weekday afternoons, which really fits in great for me, and for Callum. I worked two Saturdays ago for my first time and last Saturday was my second one. However the Lady C has fallen over and hurt herself at work and needed to go to Hospital for a broken arm. So I got called in on Thursday which I didn’t mind. Im working this friday afternoon and on saturday as well and it will be first time on my own. Lucky I grew up with a Mother as a florist huh? LOL

Our house is looking very unloved at the moment. I had a lot of plans and things that I wanted to do, however we ended up buying a car, so somethings will have to wait to be done once I have saved enough to do it. One of the little things that I would love to do, would be the front yard. Matt has putted out the willow tree/brushes that where on the side of the fence, and starting to take some shape. I need to get some top soil and have a look around at some bark colours. Just that on its own is going to cost somewhere in the $100 – $200 by the time we get 2 metres of each. I would love to get some mroe red lax brushes to put in. The plants that I got from the rental house are doing really well in the pots now, and by the time I get the soil they will be really to come out and be planted back into the real earth again.

Ooohhhh I hear more rain……I never get any washing dry here…..the nappies@@!!!!##$