Arrhh

So Ovualtion has now been and gone. We made the most of the time they we had in the little window of time. We had the whole week leading up to it aswell. Now we just have to wait and see what happens in the comings days.

I feel this baby is going to be a fighter. I also think that she will be preem too. It doesn’t matter how much I try to kid myself, that I never went into labour with Callum, and it was just luck that I was listening to what was going on. I knew deep down, that this child is going to want to beat Callum is time wise and may even be earlier then Callum. I really hope not. I hate to say it, but my dreams of a “normal” birth are all out the window. I don’t ever think that I would here writing, at 43 weeks, saying get this kid out of me!

This time, I’m asking this child if we could just make it to 35-36 weeks. That means no NICU, and just SCN. For week or two and I know that I could handle that. It also means that she will be abe to fed, and wouldn’t hopfully need a tube. I’m writing as if I’m pregnant. I really don’t know. I keep asking her to come in..Some how I think she will be like Callum and doesn’t really know what she wants, and once she makes up her mind to be here, she will want to come early..

I can’t say yet If I’m pregnant, but I feel like last time, Like I don’t bloody have a clue!! Last time I had no clue..just that my period was late..and some extra trips to the bathroom in the morning.

What do I do if I am pregnant? I really don’t know care to go for… I know Im all “high risk”, but I don’t want to be put in some folder and told that. Now I keep thinking that I’m going to have to a hospital on back up in case if I do go early. Or more to the point, I know something is wrong again.

Arhh I think I’ll just wait, and I may give that midwife a call and have a chat with her…

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