I Believed…

I broke down yesterday afternoon at work. I had a wonderful morning at home, just doing normal home things. When I got to work I was doing my hair, when one of the girls walked in. ( A TTC Girl) And she was telling me that she is 13 weeks pregnant. After that I just became really down. So I went up stairs and I cried and I cried. The other girl that I work with is 30 weeks pregnant, and the floor butler is 28 weeks. When I came back down to the office you could tell that I had been cring, but no one said anything. They are just to busy talking about how big there bellies are getting and how much the baby moves around.

I feel like I just want to hide, and never come out. To just get into bed, and hide in my covers. That way its just me here. I feel like everyone knows something that I dont. Or that all these pregnant women have a secret chair that they all sit on, or something like that. I have dreams where people are on one side, and im on the next, but I can’t make it over. They are all women and all pregnant, then they move faster away, yelling that I will never get there. I just have no life left in me. Sometimes I wish that I never got pregnant, then I would never have lost the baby.

I believed that I would have been stronger by now.

aimalyn

I have to admit this is the only entry I have read of yours. I lost a baby three years ago. It was painful, and I’m sorry that you have to go through now what I went through then. Know that I feel for you and I hope everything works out for you.

*hugs* If you need anything, anything at all, please let me know.

Babyslime

*hugs tightly*

NaturalMom

I’ve been reading for a bit and never noted, but I just wanted to {{{{{{{{{}}}}}}}}}} :o( ~Ajaye

big big big big hugs to you sweetie 🙁

I’m so sorry. Sometimes I feel like I’m drowning in infertility.

You are strong. I would hug you if I were there.

((((HUGZ))))

I can understand how you feel. With my medical and family history I’ll be lucky if I get pregnant or even carry to term. I have the added difficulty of a paraplegic for a fiance. I love him dearly, but any children will have to be well planned out and we can only pray that something (Viagra, hormone therepy, artificial insemination) will work. I don’t even know where to begin to ask questions.

Did not want to make you feel sad. I’m in a way in the same boat. I’ve wanted a child for years myself. I’m hoping that the powers that be will smile upon us someday and let us have a healthy child. We’re also looking into adoption. There are so many children out there without parents, if I can’t concive at least I can give one of them a loving home. Take care and be well

Daisy Mae

February 26, 2003

You know that I undestand. I’m so sorry that you are having to face all these pregnancies at work, where people can be at their worst at bragging about it. I send you warm hugs {{hugs}}, and positive thoughts.

I’m so sorry. After years of TTC, I really do know how you feel. I am only now, after many years thinking of TTC again. Keep your chin up and be good to yourself. There is no secret chair and nothing you did to deserve the pain you are experiencing how. I know it’s hard.

charlotte_sometimes

February 27, 2003

This is so sad to read…..I am hoping to try for a family soon with my new husband and reading this makes me realize what might not happen. I hope that it works out for you to have a baby because you deserve one.