What It Is Like To Smile

I love seeing the smiling faces at the shopping centres. Watching the children go and sit on Santa’s knee and tell him all of their dreams for Christmas. It really is magical. I could just sit there for hours and watch. Why we where down the street I ran into a old HighSchool friend. Lisa. She is also pregnant. 13 Weeks and counting.

Last night was the frist night, we have really had to catch up with friends. I guess our friends really didnt know when to come and see us and when was a right time..But last night was great. Some of the guys came around at 6.30pm played with their cars and had a couple of drinks. We headed to the movies and saw James Bond 007 Die Another Day. Interesting movie. I really enjoyed myself. I was great being myself. Lots of laughs. Shane hates wearing shoes and always kicks them off at the door. As we all got into three cars he forgets to put on his shoes. Has we got to deer park he rings Matt and tells him that he doesnt have any shoes on and do we think they will let him in? Matt anwsers with oh its late shopping you can buy some..

Two of our closest friends have just brought new cars and it really is the light of there life when they find something new with their dream. Shawn didnt know that you lock the Wheel. So as the group of us watched him run over the wrong car and try to open the door to lock the wheel. By now im rolling on the ground laughing. I just couldnt help myself. Shane with no shoes yells out to him that its not his car and that his car is four more down. And us with saying that the owners of the other car came racing over to find out why some middle 20’s year old doing there car. They couldnt help about laugh too after I had filled them in what was going on.

I felt like my old self last night. I felt like I was a teenager again. I felt so happy. No pain. No Fears, just dreams…

Lvu Kell

P.S After buying the tickets to the movie poor Shane wasnt going to be let in. After asking for the Owner I told him that we had come all the way from Ballarat to Highpoint to just see this Movie 9.30pm. Being from the country himself, he let us in…Was it because I had low cut top on..??

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I haven’t read your diary for a while, but I remembered that you would be doing your “baby kit” and that you’d be ovulating about now, so I came back to let you know I’m thinking of you. Now I’m caught up with you and it looks like you aren’t trying anymore. You sound strong in your decision, and I am sending you my thoughts. Everything will work out. All my best, happy holidays

December 22, 2002

Glad to hear you’re smiling again – even if it’s just for a little while 🙂 A little at a time hunny – small steps forward ((((HUGS))))

Glad to see your spirits are up. {{{hugs}}} I hope this week brings nothing but good tidings for you.

December 23, 2002

lol sounds like you had a great time!!!

I’m so glad you came to visit my diary! Its so hard to find people to relate to anymore. I will definitley be back in touch with you! I just read your intro and I am so touched by it. I’m getting ready to visit yet another RE next week and dread it. You have my utmost respect and I wish you all the best.BIG BIG HUG

I am sorry you are having such troubles conceiving. What about a surrogate parent? like having someone carry a child FOR you? I am starting to look into that idea myself. I was able to have three beautiful kids, and would love to help out another couple.