new things

my daughter just turned a year old. how sad. I miss her babyness.. she is crazy now.

im pregnant, almost 20 weeks.

more depressed than ive been in a long time. i just want things to change. i wonder how i got to where i am.  i havent been a nice person lately my poor kid. and that depresses me more…its an endless cycle.

im gonna go drown in my own self pity