32 weeks.

I cannot believe that I am already 32 weeks. Its exciting…I cannot wait until our baby is here.

We’re still have a name problem…lol I like a name, and we had pretty much agreed on it, until he asked me a middle name for the baby. Then I mentioned that I want her to have a polish middle name so that his side of the family would call her that, and use that name.. But then he said he liked that name (the middle name I liked) better and though we should name her that. I dont mind the name…I just dont love it the way I love the one we already chose. And so nothing ever came of it, and he started referring to her with the first name we talked about.

I miss him so much. I wish that he was here. I wish he didnt have to deploy right in the middle of the pregnancy…he is missing everything, not fair. But I also am glad that he will be here for the first year of the baby…he wont miss out on that, I think that is more important. Its just hard.

I have to decide who I am going to have in the delivery room with me. That is hard…Id rather none of my family be in there…but I probably need someone…and I have an idea of who I would want in there if I had to choose but how do I choose and not make someone feel bad?

my baby shower is this weekend. I cant wait to see everyone. There will be a few people there that I havent seen since before we moved….so that will be exciting. And I get to eat cake! and we ordered the cake from a very good bakery….yum….lol

I feel like Im starting to get so big….but at the doctor today he said Im measuring "a little small" but wasnt concerned and didnt want to change the due date so thats good. He told me just to drink water and keep eating "healthy" really, thats his solution to anything….lol

i feel like I have a lot to do before I have the baby….yet half of it is back where we live, and have of it is here with my parents…..and the problem….I have NO motivation at all.

And Im so ready to be done working.