My wedding

This is crazy. My wedding is now 2 weeks from tomorrow.
I have so much stuff to do. And no time to do it. I should have gotten most of it done a  long time ago. But I have other things to do.
My niece just turned a year old. and she just had surgery last week. Everything has been so busy and messed up lately.
Jay joined the airforce. I will be moving away from my family 🙁   I will be soo soo soo soo sad. I dont want to move. But I guess I dont want to live in another state from my husband either. I dont know. I dont want to miss out on my niece growing up. She isnt even going to remember me when I come back 🙁 I will be so sad.
Im afraid for my job. Haha. I guess not FOR my job. but I am a nanny, and I told them I would stay long term. (i swore they said 18 months, not they’re saying 24).  I woudl be able to stay till the baby is 18 months and they put him in montessori school, but 24 months is way too long to be away from Jay. Because that is next may, and then school is out for the summer so then that would be the following august. So its not going to work. The people I nanny for are great, theyre so nice. You would think they would understand. But I get this feeling they are going to be so angry at me. When things dont go their way they get pissy and rude. I dont know what to do, I dont even want to tell them. It doesnt help that the 5 year old thinks that I will be there until either one of us dies.
I dont know.
too much to think about in so little time.