im sad, again.

im always sad. i always feel sad. maybe im not actually “sad”. no one ever wants me around.
i always have to make sure that im included in things. otherwise i wont be.
it doesnt seem jay ever invites me to go out anymore. if he goes out after work, he doesnt come home until late…and he never calls to see if i want to go with him wherever. maybe im asking too much.
but if he doesnt go out after work, its cause he is too tired and doesnt want to do anything really. so we end up watching tv. but then….thats our hanging out.
im confused. why arent i wanted anymore? my presense and my company never used to be a problem to him, he never said he needed to just hang out without me. *sigh* what did i do wrong…….again?