saddness…?

I can’t believe how long it has been since I have written. A long time ago I wrote an entry and OpenDiary was being gay, so it wouldn’t let me post it.

I haven’t even thought about this site in so long. I only came back one day a couple months ago to renew my subscription(sp) because I was sad of losing all my things.

I dont know what to say. I don’t remember the last things said.

I’m doing alrite. I suppose. I’m not working at kindercare anymore, though I am missing it so incredibly much its not even funny. I miss my kids there…I just want to cry.

I’m watching my niece and nephew again. But they are two psychotic children, and I dont know how long that is going to last. And they just got a puppy…to add onto the stress..

My relationship is good…it will be a whole year on August 26th. thats so scary. (for so many reasons)

I dont know if I am even on anyones fav’s list…I havent even looked at my fav’s in so long. *sigh*

I feel so busy. But that really isn’t it. I just isolate myself from everything I used to be. I like the new me….or myself as I am now. I don’t rely on this or that to get through a day. It’s nice.

My sister is going to lebanon in september…I don’t know what I am going to do without her for a whole month. And my nephew is turning 8 and my niece 3 soon. They are getting so old….I am getting so old.

Nathan(7yr old) is being put on ADD medicine very soon. It makes me feel so sad. The psychologist really doesnt know if he has ADD or if he is bipolar. Makes me want to cry.

Anyway, that’s enough for now. talk to everyone later.