dont understand

people upset me. things they do, things they say.

jay and i were supposed to hang out today alone. its 7 he usually gets off at 5..and he still isnt home…

that makes me sad because he’s leaving tomorrow to go out of town.

i dont know if he’s still working..or out with one of his friends.

im even more upset cause he can come home at normal times any other day and sit and play xbox all night. like last night 6pm until about 12:30am him and his friends played.

i got all showered and ready to go out too…and i didnt even lay down to take a nap because by the time i got out and got dressed and did my hair, it was close to the normal time he comes home.

*sad*

Work really sucks lately. I really cannot decide whether or not I want to get a new job. I think I want to be a nanny..but its so much work to become one. so many annoying interviews…and I dislike people very much…I hate the fake bullshit of meeting and interviewing.

My sister and her husband are getting back together. and now my nephew will need to go to daycare after school. and my niece is in daycare..

now…my brother in-law pays about 215 a week for his daughter to go full time, and my sister will be paying about 100 for my nephew to go 2 days a week after school. i figure that if i offer to nanny for them for about 300 a week…it would save my sister from waking up earlier to drive my nephew to school…finding someone to watch him 3 days after school…and it would save her husband waking my niece up at 5:45 to get her to daycare by 6:15. But i dont know if they will go for it or not.

I dunno. guess ill wait a little longer for jay to get home..then im going out. *sigh*