9-11

today has been so different.

i went to sleep yesterday around like 4:15 and i woke up this morning at 6:30. it was a nice long sleep. i only woke up once in the night. i didnt expect to wake up though, cause i took a bunch of benadryl and a vicodin before i went to sleep.

i didnt want to deal with yesterday.

i’d do the same today, but whats the point of not dealing with today either, cause im gonna have to deal with another day anyway.

i was mad cause the girl at work bitched all morning about how she was gonna be alone in the room with 5 kids, because they were going to send me home. and it turns out they took stupid bitchy women out of the room and left me alone so that she could sit in the office and talk all day long. bastards. then they didnt give me a break and told me i could leave at 2, they didnt come in at 2 and i asked if i was leaving at 2:45 and she said yes. cause that woul dbe my 8 hours. and noooooo she didnt come back till 3:15. fuck them.

its 9-11. how scary. i dont think its been a year. it couldnt have been a full year. its weird. i was with kirk last year. and we spent the day together. of course i was working as a nanny, but he was with me. and yea. we watched the news all night. and i just remember the overall feeling of last year. i remember watching it all happen.

and then this year, i was at work and couldnt watch the news. but i listened to the radio all day and it was sad n stuff. they played good music all day. im not sure if im even gonna talk to my boyfriend today. i havent talked to him in the past couple days and hes suppose to call later, so we’ll see.

i sick of feeling like crap. grrr. im just in a not good mood. and i dont like that. i want to be happy. but whatever.

*sigh*

i wanna kick someone. i think i am going to go to walmart. im bored. but i hsouldnt be spending money. oh well.