home, again.

Im extremely tired. no energy. life sucks. lol

grrr i want tifanny to come visit me sooon!!

i got home today at like 10am. we left my grandmothers at 2:30am. I drove most the way, i tried to sleep in the car but couldnt.

and i got like an hour of sleep last night.

anyway, so i came home and started to clean my room. and i got a bad headahce. i didnt think anything of it, i get them all the time.

so then, i tried carrying this big box of pictures upstairs, and halfway up i almost passed out. so i put it down and went and layed on the couch, and almost threw up all over. argh.

so after like a half hour, i came back down told tiffany i was going to sleep. i got in bed. my sister begged me to go to walmart.. we go to walmart, and i got so sick i couldnt walk, see, almost puked.

errrgh. so i go home at like 3 and i went to bed, and slept until 7.

i forgot i had to watch my niece, so i went upstairs fed her, and then she was ready for bed (YAY!) lol. so i get to go back to sleep.

i cant wait. im so sleepy.

my grandpa is getting really old. its sad, and it makes me want to cry. even though he pissed me off like 387439874 times. he can hardly walk without holding something, and he cant get up and down from the basement without holding the rail with two hands. its just scary and sad, because i love him. and i dont want him to die. but hes old, and he will. but it isnt fair.

*shrugs* a lot of times you hear about how after one spouse dies the other does soon after, that scares me cause i dont want my grandma to die either :*(.

i want to try to visit them as much as i can though. i know we’re going there in august for my cousins wedding. and then we’re going in december for my grandparents 50th anniv.

*sigh*

i need to finish cleaning up my room.