birthday-thanksgiving.

Today, Thanksgiving, is my birhtday. hehe. Im 20. luckie me. so much has changed since 12am..lol. not really.

Im very tired. I dont sleep anymore, I got out too much. How sad. I used to be in bed by 8 pm, not I am luckie if I get in bed by 8am. lol

Its been really great though. Having friends. If I feel down, they cheer me up. And the thing is they do it without knowing.

The guys we hang out with are mean, lol. not really. but they beat us up. hehe

Usually I just fight back, but today..tonight anyway..I was too blah. Alan pinched me really hard, and I just let him, and so Ashley got mad and beat him up. lol. And Mike threw a hard brush at me :/

I was convinced that everyone would forget about my birthday. Ashley, who is my friends sister was the first one to actually remember, at midnight she told me happy birthday. Alan told me he’d buy me a cd, but I dont know which one I want, and the one I want he wont buy cause he doestn like it 😡

Lori got me this cute little bear thing, its cool. And she put this huge candle on this cup cake and sang happy birthday to me, its been years since anyones done that. lol.

I feel happy in a sad way. lol. I dont like birthdays, for many reasons. Usually because the most important people never are a part of them. But this year, I cant say that.

Well anyway, on tuesday night, lori, chrissy, mike, and I went to this gay ass party. It was gay because it had all these high school kids there, that I remember from when I was in high school, and I felt like such a loser being there. lol.

But lori, chrissy, and I drank. and it was a lot of fun. But the bathroom was scary, and there were some scary guys trying to rape us. lol. or so we thought, ick. yuckie dirty boys.

Anyway, time for bed. its late, I need a job. lol. but its so much fun without one.

oh well.