uh…life.
Wow, Saturday was pretty crazy.
ya, so I told Lily I would lend her $120, and I’m not sure that’s the best idea…now that Chris mentioned it, but I don’t know how to tell her that without hurting her feelings. I don’t wnat her to take it personally, and I know she’ll be upset if she doesn’t get to go on the camping trip, but I don’t think I know her well enough to lend her so much money. Maybe I shouldn’t have been so generous.
Right now I’m searching on the internet for this ridiculous pair of shoes that I want really badly. I don’t even know the price, but they’re from Nine West, so they’re probably too expensive for me anyways, I don’t know why I’m hunting them down so hard. I origanally wanted red shoes to match my dress, but know I’ve become obsessed with these things, and I’ve only seen one picture of them!
K, I wrote that Saturday was crazy and then didn’t talk about it. well, Chris Parsons kissed my neck, and that was just about the most disgusting thing ever…and apparently I should watch out for James, because according to Duffy, he’s a creeper. I’ll take his word for it. But the most ridiculous thing about it is that I spent the whole night linked to this James guy, and no one thought to tell me to stay (wow the fire alarm just went off. I was very reluctant to leave the computer like this) away from him. Today, even Kenny agreed with what Duffy said about how James is a creeper. It’s like, man, what the hell? I didn’t think it was really anything, but like Duffy and now Kenny, have both said, I shouldn’t give him any kind of a window at all because he’ll take anything as a hint.
I don’t know what’s going on with me, I wanted to break up with Chris so badly before. My plan was to do it after his birthday so I wouldn’t hurt him so much, but then I fugured I will probably have to wait until after we spay the cat. It’s not fair to get him a kitten and then not pay for it. My Grandma is so retarded, she’s going to be all like “I told you so” if I stay with him. I think we should break up for the summer though.
The one thing that really sucks is that having sex blows!!! I don’t ever feel like it anymore. Is it the curse of a woman to “not feel like it” and fake it all the time? Cuz that’s what I’ve been doing lately…I feel like such a stereotype.
neways, lunch time, kbye.