I Knew I Wouldn’t Write Often

      I knew I wasn’t going to write that often…but lately I’ve been having the urge to write in here. It’s been so insanely busy…Chris and I are going to the ranch, He’s on kitchen staff..tsk, tsk, I wish that hadn’t happened. It would have looked really good on him if he had said, "well, I really like kids, I would actually rather be a councellor", especially after everything I said about him to Rick. It actually kind of pisses me off. Even if we didn’t have the same group of kids, there are always some activities we would do together at some point. F–k! He’s all like, "no, we’ll still see each other at meals," I’m like, uh…no! that may be my time to sit and eat, but he’ll be busy working…what an idiot…I’ll only see him at night..and he’s going to be even more excluded from everyone else because he’s on kitchen, everyone is going to think he’s a big nerd, and at night, it will only be me and him…I won’t be able to socialize with anyone else because he will have no friends outside of the kitchen and noone knows him to start!…it’s only him in the kitchen! he really botched that one. And it pisses me off that Rick is always on about needing more male councellors, I get him one, and he fuuking puts him in the kitchen! You need males for the kids, do you not?rrr…

     I’m so stressed these days. I made a goal for myself to get at least and 80% in Chemistry, (completely unlike me to actually do well in school), so I’m trying so hard which is not something that I usually do…so far I’m getting an 89%, but it’s only the beginning…I have no idea how I’m going to keep this up, especially if I’m going away next week. I set another goal for math, and that is a 70…but the fuuking teacher screwed that one up for me already because he’s an asshole and when I tried to hand in my project he woudn’t accept it because it was "too messy and I need to type it out." Stupid prick. clearly I don’t have access to a computer. Why do you think I never write in this thing? So ya, he asked for it the next day, and now i fuuking don’t know where it is, and it’s been like, 3 weeks. I refuse to rewrite it because I worked really hard on the first one that he wouldn’t take…he makes me so mad!

              k, I’m done now.