Be patient

A groan of tedium escapes me
Startling the fearful
Is this a test?
It has to be
Otherwise I can’t go on
Draining patience

Drain vitality
This paranoid, paralyzed vampire act’s a little old
But I’m still right here
Giving blood, keeping faith
And I’m still right here
But I’m still right here
Giving blood, keeping faith
And I’m still right here
Gonna wait it out
If there were no rewards to reap
No loving embrace to see me through
This tedious path I’ve chosen here
I certainly would’ve walked away
By now
Gonna wait it out
If there were no desire to heal
The damaged and broken met along
This tedious path I’ve chosen here
I certainly would’ve walked away
By now
And I still may
I still may
Be patient
Be patient
Be patient
I must keep reminding myself of this
If there were no rewards to reap
No loving embrace to see me through
This tedious path I’ve chosen here
I certainly would’ve walked away
By now
And I still may
And I still may
And I still may
And I…
Gonna wait it out
Gonna wait it out
Wait it out
Gonna wait it out –Tool The patient

Days like today you could cut me in half, knowing everything I know, I’m torn between “best friend girl” and “girl who is in love”. I’m not sure how to act, which side I should lean toward more when I speak to him. I just want everything to be normal…and I don’t know what to say to you..

Of course, I cannot deny that I want to pounce him and whisper “i love you, I love you… spend time with me but friend girl stops that quickly and probably for the best.

What should I be wishing for, which outcome should I be cheering for..

I wish I could saw myself in half that way I wouldn’t feel fucked up when I feel both. Of course, I could just feel nothing at all and I still may

-Or-

I could always enroll myself in a 12-step program, for addictions I never want to kick.But you just can’t tell, Who’ll you love and who you won’t….And I love you….

-Of course-

I could just inhale and let the world vanish..And I’m still right here maybe right here is all I’m suppose to be.

*Angel*

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