Vinson Reynolds

Vinson Reynolds………………………………………………………………………

( This is an account of my first sexual experience. This gets a little x-rated. I am not usually this sexually explicit but this experience had a significant effect on my life.)

 I could  start a whole other diary just devoted to all I have to say to and about him. Vinson, my first.  My first love, my first serious crush, my first lover. My first everything!  He was to me as Big is to Carrie on SATC. (Yes funnywoman, I knew exactly what you where referring to!)

 It all started my freshman year of college. Thinking back now I was a DumbAss! I was so naive! Freshman year of college is the year I made the dumbest decisions I ever made and did some of the dumbest things Ive ever done. However, its the most FUN  year in college I ever had.

 Vinson ( or V-Nut as  his fellow football players called him) was a sophomore my freshman year of college. I had seen him around campus on occasion but I never really thought anything of him because I would have never approached him. He was a football player and he looked just like the typical one. He was tall, about 6’3" , muscular,  about 230lbs, with one of those thick necks that all football players have. I thought he was way outta my league and I never would off approached him. Vinson was the ideal guy that I always dreamed I would be with. He was tall, muscular, dressed nice,  played football and cute.

 One day as my roommate Melody and I were walking back from a party one weekend a car with a group of guys stopped us. It was the first week of school so there was alot of people on the streets partying. All the guys got out of the car and asked us our names. It was about 5 or 6 guys packed into one little 2 door Ford Explorer. At first this guy named TeLee approached me and asked for my number. I happily gave it to him. He saved it in his phone. Then Vinson approached me, he asked for my number too. At first I was reluctant to give it to him because his friend ,TeLee, had just gotten my number but Vinson insisted so I finally gave it to him too.

 It took two weeks before Vinson finally called me and the only reason he did was because I saw him at a bowling party. Meanwhile, I was having the time of my life my first semester of my first year of college. All these guys were tryin to talk to me, I had date everyday. Everybody was hooking up with everybody and there was no one there to answer to. College was the first taste of freedom for most people and they went wild. I however was having the time of my life but I didnt take it too far. I was a still a virgin my freshman year and I didnt want have sex with just anybody. I probably would have waited until I was married but I got so much pressure to have sex with the girls I hung out with my freshman year of college. (Who ended up being the wrong crowd to hang out with because true friends would not pressure you into having sex, they would tell you to wait.)So, instead of waiting until I was married, I decided to wait until my birthday to lose my virginity.

 Just so happened the day I saw Vinson was at the bowling party it was my birthday. Vinson called me over to his room  later that night. I was so excited! I had never been with a guy before and even more so I had never been with a guy like Vince. It was like a dream and all night I kept thinking, "is this real or am I dreaming?" We started talking at first. just regular small talk that you say when getting to know someone. That night I found out that he was originally from

New Jersey but moved to

Detroit later on and then here at NIU on a football scholarship. We talked for a while then he decided it was time for him to make a move ( Its funny I remember it like it was yesterday)

 Vinson lived in a single dorm room but it had two beds on opposite sides(in Grant-anyone at who ever went to NIU understands). As we talked I sat on one side and he sat on another. When it was time for him to make his move, he came to my side and said " Lets get more comfortable and pull the beds together."  I said , "okay" At that time I would have agreed with anything he would have said because I was sooo nervous. 

 He pulled the beds together and I just sat there. I was so nervous and unsure of what to do. However there was a bump in the road. ( God I cant believe Im writing this!) I was on my period and I didnt know how to tell him.  To tell the truth I didnt come to his room expecting to have sex, I just though we would kiss and make out a little and that was it, like in high school. But I wasnt in high school anymore, and I was too naive to think that if a man asks you to come over at one o’clock in the morning it can be for no other reason than a "booty call" I had never been with a man before and I didnt want to leave so I made up in my mind that we would make out and I would just let him touch me above my waist and it would go no further.

 But then he began to kiss me, and it was like a dream. I sat there frozen because I didnt know what to do. Actually, I didnt have to because he already knew. He kissed me and I followed his lead, he wrapped his lips around mine and I just closed my eyes and savored the moment. He moved down my neck, slowly, with light almost innocent little kisses as if he knew body. He knew exactly where to kiss and exactly how to kiss that area. Some kisses where long and some where short. It seemed as if he was reading my reactions so he knew exactly what kisses felt better.

 He leaned against me so that I would lay down on the bed and I did. As I laid down he took of my shirt and then took off his. He got up and turned of the lights, but in the moonlight I could still see his body. He had the PERFECT BODY (I think that is one strong reason why I liked him so) He had great skin. It was the smoothest skin I had ever seen on guy. He had no hair on his chest, I was glad because I hated hairy men (If you are a hairy man, no offense) He wasnt built like a body builder or nothin but he was just right. He was big but not too big. Nice broad shoulders, nice toned chest but not overly done. He leaned down undid my bra and began to kiss my breast I just laid there. I didnt know what to do. Usually, This was something that I would be laying in my bed dreaming about but this time it was really happening so I had my eyes wide open the whole time.

He kissed down my body slowly and he came to my waist.  He began to pull down my pants.Then I finally decided to tell him. I whispered " I cant Imon my period." He stopped for a moment but and then said, "That’s okay." I thought, "This is crazy"  but at the same time I didnt want him to stop.It felt so good and I had never been with a man before so I let him continue. He pulled off my pants and stood up and took off his. I just stared because I had never seen a naked man before in real life.

He began to kiss me again but this time he started at my stomach and worked his way down to my inner thigh. I had never felt anything like that in my life. My heart jumped. I cant explain the feeling (because it was my first time) but it was something about it that felt so right and so innocent but all my life I was told that sex was bad so it was confusing.   Perhaps the reason I felt this way was because it was my first time , because I have yet to get this feeling from anyone else. It was weird because at the same time I was worried, because I was on my period. But then I thought if he isnt bothered then why should I be?

After kissing and licking down my thigh to my knee caps he came up at looked at me dead in the face. I was uncomfortable because I didnt know if my eyes should be closed or not. Was I weird to have them open the whole time? Or should I close them an just enjoy the feeling. I closed them.

His lips hovered over mine and I could feel him breathing but he didnt kiss me. Then there was a big pause. I opened my eyes. He was opening something. It was a condomn and he quickly but it on. I couldnt believe this was happening, I thought it was a dream. But then I began to brace myself for what was going to happen next.

I had always heard that its hurts the first time so I was preparing myself for pain. I guess he could see it in my face so he asked " are you okay?" I said ‘" yea, but just go slow" and he noded. I felt him as he attempted to penetrate me. I laid as still as I could be I guess I was moving back because the next thing I noticed we were almost off the bed.

The rest of the night he kelpt trying to "get in" but couldnt.  Finally we stopped trying and went to sleep. In the middle of the night, while I was sleep he kissed me on the cheek. ( I thought that was the sweetest thing ever!) That night he held me and I swear that was the greatest feeling I ever had. It was the greatest  high I had ever had more than any drugs can ever make you! I couldnt even sleep I was so excited so I just laid there pretending to sleep. There was something comforting about his presence that I cant explain. Him lying next to me was just unimaginable. Once or twice during the middle of the night I would just watch him sleep. He laid there so peaceful like something out of a movie.